THOMAS MERTON
(1915 – 1968)


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Every one of us is shadowed by an illusory person: a false self. 

This is the man that I want myself to be but who cannot exist, because God does not know anything about him.  And to be unknown of God is altogether too much privacy.

My false and private self is the one who wants to exist outside the reach of God's will and God's love – outside of reality and outside of life.  And such a self cannot help but be an illusion.

We are not very good at recognising illusions, least of all the ones we cherish about ourselves – the ones we are born with and which feed the roots of sin.  For most of the people in the world, there is no greater subjective reality than this false self of theirs, which cannot exist.  A life devoted to the cult of this shadow is what is called a life of sin.

All sin starts from the assumption that my false self, the self that exists only in my own egocentric desires, is the fundamental reality of life to which everything else in the universe is ordered.  Thus I use up my life in the desire for pleasures and the thirst for experiences, for power, honour, knowledge and love, to clothe this false self and construct its nothingness into something objectively real.  And I wind experiences around myself and cover myself with pleasures and glory like bandages sin order to make myself perceptible to myself and to the world, as if I were an invisible body that could only become visible when something visible covered its surface....

               The secret of my identity is hidden in the love and mercy of God...
               If I find Him I will find myself and if a find my true self I will find Him....
               The only One Who can teach me to find God is God, God Alone. 

(New Seeds of Contemplation 29 – 36)

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